voice of my head..

sharing~~

2008-10-28T10:35:00.000-07:00

Sharing..
there are a lot a things that people sharing in this world..totally..
we share money..
we share phone's credit..
we share story..
we share happiness..
we share food..
we share some place to sleep..
we share transport..
we share pen or others tools..
we share information..
even, some times we share cloths...sometimes..

but..its really stress..and really tension if u cannot..
share your problem without someones..
no ones wanna hear its..

"BECAUSE NOTHINGS SUCKS MORE THAN FEELING ALL ALONE..NO MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE AROUND.."

so..what do you thinks?..
am i right?let share its with others..sharing is good things..

P/S: some advise..never ever share some ones u love with someones else..hahaha..because love are about sharing with 2 people..not 3 peoples..

matang itu penting? erm..

2008-10-27T09:33:00.000-07:00

he holiday
ola..

hehehe..waaa~~~
its been a really2 busy time for the past few weeks..
i got a lot of things to finish..
presenting my thesis, submit my assignment, a few clumsy test...
waa~~ my head just wanna to exploded..
so mcm xde mase nak update my blogs..hehee

But..everythings gonna be finds..
tinggal 2 mggu je lagi...The presentation seen finds..xde pape..nnt ade mase, leh la upload kt cni..kitorg cam present happy2 je.. not too much pressure towards us.. maybe we the last group.. and the panel start to feel bored~~
hehe..mesti korang pelik..present ape ek..Actually, its was my thesis's presentation..My final year project.. i must present my project to 3 panel.. The panel will asking and judging about my project..Its were very2 important..Coz if we may fail if we cannot present well and make the panel understands, its may coz some problem.. the problem are really2 big..Loser..What a nightmare..totally..But alhamdulillah, after a solid preparation( i thinks laa), there were no problem for me and my co-supervise..everything were smoothly..The panel look ok and we also have really have fun that day..

ok2..i seen be off topic for a while.. u all must be thinking, what with the title..
hahaha..weird huh? hahaha...actually camni.. i just come back from my hometown for a weekend and the deepavali holiday..its not that i celebrate that festival...just take advantages the festival..i means the holiday la..
So camni..slalunye kt umah, klu cam xleh tdor..i usually akan psl radio and finds somethings to reads...so xkesah pape la..novel ke..majalah ke..so my mother have this weird hobby..xthu pelik ke tak..she likes to collect novel.. especially Aisya Sofea novel..so, kadang2 cam terambik la satu dua untuk dibaca..hahaha weird..but best gak la ek baca2 novel ni..hehehe..ok2....buikan nak cite psl novel ni.. than while reading the novel... i notice ones things..sepanjang pengalaman baca novel ni ( my mothers have about 20- 30 somethings novels,so cam dah bace lbh sparuh..lbh pengalaman la kn), ade satu weird things that the writer keep doing~~
ALL THE HEROES ARE OLDERS THAN HEROINS~~~weird..

Apa ngan maksub itu smua ek? Heroes 35 and the heroins 26..average la..what with the ages? are ages are really important? erm..weird kn? hahaha..
so i make so ice breaking..hahaha xde la..some research.. i thinks i got what all the writers try to saids.. its seen that the ages of all the heroes represent the maturity..Em..rupa2nye..maturity ni penting ek..They try to saids that all girls need a mature man in their life and guys are need to be mature and be more understanding if their want their relationship succes..Tp maturity tu are not been judges by the ages, but how u manage u life..xkesah la korg bru berumur 18 tahun ke, 21 tahun ke..30 thn ke...So.. my friends..start to be mature, stop been childish..hahaha..maybe btol apa yg aku kata ni..maybe salah..so..pandai2 la korang pkir sendiri ek..hahaha..

P/s: hahaha..one things that really piss me off..slalunye penulis2 tu mesti buat hero-hero tinggi lampai..yang ni aku xsetuju..xsetuju..apa..tinggi lampai ok sgt ke..

LeTiHnye~~

2008-10-20T07:17:00.000-07:00

aku Letih~~~
LetiH miNda~~~
LetIh fiZiKAL~~~
LetiH mEmiKir~~
LetiH bAdAN~~~
LEtiH nGAn masALah~~
LetiH dGn BeLaJaR~~

nAk ReHAt~~
nAk cUti~~~
nAk LuLus~~
NAk duiT~~

aKu NAk cUtI~~

WeiRd

2008-10-06T11:24:00.000-07:00

Alangkah peliknya kita......
Pelik ya, duit RM50 kelihatan begitu besar bila di bawa ke kotak derma masjid, tapi begitu kecil bila kita bawa ke supermarket.

Pelik ya,
30 minit terasa terlalu lama utk berzikir tp betapa pendeknya waktu utk satu cerita komedi.

Pelik ya,
betapa lamanya 1 jam berada di masjid,tp betapa cepatnya 2 jam berlalu saat menonton wayang di panggung.

Pelik ya,
tak sampai 30 minit dengar khutbah Jumaat,dah rasa jemu tp tak pernah puas dengar lagu kesukaan kita walaupun dah ulang dua tiga kaset berkali-kali.

Pelik ya,
dengar iklan jualan murah dlm tv, rasa tak sabar-sabar nak pergi beli-belah, tp dengar laungan azan tak sabar-sabar nak tukar channel lain.

Pelik ya,
pasar mlm jauh sanggup naik kereta pergi,tp masjid dekat rmh rasa berat kaki pulak.

Pelik ya,
susah sungguh merangkai kata utk dipanjatkan saat berdoa atau solat, tp betapa mudahnya cari bahan bersembang dgn kawan-kawan.

Pelik ya,
rasa susah sungguh utk habiskan al-Quran walau satu halaman, tp majalah hiburan dan novel best-seller 100 halaman pun habis dilahap.

Pelik ya,
ramai org berebut paling depan utk menonton bola atau konsert, tetapi berebut cari saf paling belakang bila solat Jumaat supaya boleh cepat keluar.

Pelik ya,
susahnya org mengajak menyebarkan dakwah,tapi mudahnya org menyertai dan menyebar gossip.

Pelik ya,
kita begitu percaya pada yg dikatakan di email yg layang di internet, tapi sering mempertikaikan apa yang dikatakan al-Quran.

Pelik ya,
kita boleh mengirimkan ribuan jenaka dan surat berantai di email, tapi bila mengirim yg berkaitan dgn ibadah berfikir dua tiga kali.

Pelik tak kita…..?
Tepuk dada …… tanyalah hati dan iman.
Renungkanlah……...

p/s : Kadang-kadang rase malu sangat diri ni..kecik sangat..rase cam betol-betol kerdil..

PUSPA

2008-10-06T03:33:00.000-07:00

hehehe..
for those that read the title must be thinking it was a girl name? hahaha..naahh.. actually " puspa" is a title of an indon song from band ST12.. i hear that song from a friends page. best jugak.. So, why not i share the song with u.

Lirik Lagu ST 12 - Puspa

kau gadisku yang cantik
coba lihat aku disini
disini ada aku yang cinta padamu

kau gadisku yang manis
coba lihat aku disini
disini ada aku yang sayang padamu

walau kutahu bahwa dirimu
sudah ada yang punya
namun kan kutunggu sampai kau mau

[reff]
jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku
liriksong wordpress com
ku kan selalu setia menunggu
untuk jadi pacarmu

jangan jangan kau tak kenal cintaku
jangan jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
putuskanlah saja pacarmu
lalu bilang i love you padaku

walau kutahu bahwa dirimu
sudah ada yang punya
namun kan kutunggu sampai kau mau

back to reff

Gratisan Musik

p/s: hehehe.. lirik lagu ni cam menarik je kan.. betol tak?

Selamat Hari Raya ~~~(2)

2008-10-06T01:57:00.001-07:00

~ beraya kat masjid kristal

~weird biskuit make by my lil sis

~ sebelum pegi solat raya

~ sate yg aku bakar, 500 cucuk ..memang meletihkan

~senyuman raya

~kawan-kawan yang datang beraya

- ('',)

Selamat Hari Raya...maaf zahir batin..i thinks its still not to late for wish selamat hari raya.. rayakn sebulan.btol tak?

Alhamdulillah, masih dapat aku beraya tahun ni.masih panjang umur. Tahun ni, kitorg sambut raya mcm raya-raya yang lepas. Simple but still happening. Kitorg just celebrate kt kuala terengganu je, xbalik kampung coz abah ade byk keje.Malam sebelum raya, macam biase kitorg bergotong- royong tolong mak ( actually i just got 3 siblings, Kaklong, me and my lil sis). Tahun ni tugas aku kena bakar sate. Waa.. memang meletih kn. Tapi seronok jugak la. Suke maen-maen api ni..hehehe.Yang pasti, raya tahun ni xde yang sedey-sedey. semua happy-happy..

P/s: sape cakap kuala terengganu jalan x jem.. Yaallah, jem giler.. malas betol aku nak bwk keta tyme2 jem ni.Hampir-hampir beraya dalam keta je.

Women (1)

2008-10-05T04:35:00.000-07:00

here i post a few fact about womens.. the creations of ALLAH that have be haunted men from century.. I LOVE WOMENS..hehehe

1. Doa perempuan lebih makbul daripada lelaki kerana sifat penyayang yang lebih kuat daripada lelaki.. Ketika ditanya kepada Rasulullah akan hal tersebut, jawab baginda, 'Ibu lebih penyayang daripada bapa dan doa orang yang penyayang tidak akan sia-sia'.

2. Apabila seseorang perempuan mengandung janin dalam rahimnya, maka beristighfarlah para malaikat untuknya.Allah men! catatkan baginya setiap hari dengan 1,000 kebajikan dan menghapuskan darinya 1,000 kejahatan.

3. Apabila seseorang perempuan mulai sakit hendak bersalin, maka Allah mencatatkan baginya pahala orang yang berjihad pada jalan Allah.

4. Apabila seseorang perempuan melahirkan anak, keluarlah dia dari dosa-dosa seperti keadaan ibunya melahirkannya.

5. Apabila telah lahir anak lalu disusui, maka bagi ibu itu setiap satu tegukan daripada susunya diberi satu kebajikan.

6. Apabila semalaman ibu tidak tidur dan memelihara anaknya yang sakit, maka Allah memberinya pahala seperti memerdekakan 70 hamba dengan ikhlas untuk membela agama Allah.

7. Barangsiapa yang menggembirakan anak perempuannya, darjatnya seumpama orang yang s! entiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah dan orang yang takutkan Allah, akan diharamkan api neraka ke atas tubuhnya.

8. Barangsiapa membawa hadiah, (barang makanan dari pasar ke rumah) lalu diberikan kepada keluarganya, maka pahalanya seperti bersedekah. Hendaklah mendahulukan anak perempuan daripada anak lelaki. Maka, barangsiapa yang menyukakan anak perempuan seolah-olah dia memerdekakan anak Nabi Ismail.

9. Tiap perempuan yang menolong suaminya dalam urusan agama, maka Allah&n! bsp; memasukkan dia ke dalam syurga lebih dahulu daripada

suaminya (10,000 tahun).

10. Perempuan apabila sembahyang lima waktu, puasa bulan ramadhan,memelihara kehormatannya serta taat akan suaminya, masuklah dia dari pintu syurga mana sahaja yang dikehendaki.

11. Wanita yang solehah! (baik) itu lebih baik daripada 1,000 lelaki yang soleh.

12. Aisyah berkata, 'Aku bertanya kepada Rasulullah, siapakah yang lebih besar haknya terhadap wanita? Jawab Rasulullah, 'Suaminya. 'Siapa pula berhak terhadap lelaki?' Jawab Rasulullah, 'Ibunya'.

13. Apabila memanggil akan engkau dua orang ibubapamu, maka jawablah panggilan ibumu dahulu.

14. Wanita yang taat akan suami! nya, semua ikan-ikan di laut, burung diudara, malaikat di langit, matahari dan bulan semua beristighfar baginya selama mana dia taat kepada suaminya serta menjaga sembahyang dan puasanya.

15. Wanita yang taat berkhidmat kepada suaminya akan tertutup pintu-pintu neraka dan terbuka pintu-pintu syurga. Masuklah dari mana-mana pintu yang dia kehendaki dengan tidak dihisab.

16. Syurga itu di bawah tapak kaki ibu.

17. Wanita yang tinggal bersama anak-anaknya akan tinggal bersama aku (Nabi s.a.w ) di dalam syurga.

18. Barangsiapa mempunyai tiga anak perempuan atau tiga saudara perempuan atau dua anak perempuan atau dua saudara perempuan lalu dia bersikap ihsan dalam pergaulan dengan mereka dan mendidik mereka dengan penuh rasa takwa serta bertanggungjawab, maka baginya syurga.

19. Daripada Aisyah r.a. Barangsiapa yang diuji dengan sesuatu ! daripada anak-anak perempuannya, lalu dia berbuat baik kepada mereka, maka mereka akan menjadi penghalang baginya daripada api neraka. 'Jadi, janganlah sesekali kita merasa lemah. Wanitalah sebenarnya yang membuat seseorang lelaki itu kuat. Itulah salah satu sebab mengapa Nabi meletakkan wanita setaraf pada lelaki dan tidak lebih rendah.

Selamat Hari Raya~~~(1)

2008-09-24T19:03:00.000-07:00

Get Hari Raya Graphics Here

~~selamat hari raya, today i will go back to my hometown. After struggling finish the assignment having a tough week, so its time for me to held back to my hometown. Hehehe, cannot wait for having a nice vacations. Lot things to do and planning..

hehehe...so just wanna wish you all, selamat hari raya and have a nice vacations..maaf zahir batin ( same goes to u L)..jemput datang umah ek..

p/s: this year its gonna be blue..i mean the family themes colours..what about u?

The Invicible

2008-09-24T11:22:00.000-07:00

Why i choose Arsenal?
that always the question that be asking from my friends..
so tonight let me tell you the answer after seeing Arsenal crush sheffield United last night..6-0

Arsene Wenger(Arsenal manager) has supplied English football with some of its most memorable moments in the last 12 years.

They include the crowning of his 'Invincibles' of 2003-2004 who went through an entire league season undefeated, and the scintillating shows of a series of teams who consistently have played the most eye-pleasing football the nation has witnessed.But forget for a moment his three Premier League titles, his four FA Cups and Arsenal's one appearance in the Champions League final.

His greatest gift to English football perhaps came at the Emirates Stadium when an Arsenal youth team, by and large, humiliated Sheffield United in the Carling Cup third round.Not just because the teenagers drew a crowd of 56,632, but more because it was the night Wenger provided an alternative to the madness.The 6-0 scoreline struck a blow for common sense. It sent out a message to the whole of football that there is still a place for artistry and managerial ingenuity in a world which for most has become a measure of who has the biggest chequebook and the deepest pockets.There is, after all, another route to success other than throwing limitless cash at players, many of whom turn out to have limited talent.

Football is not all about the £30million and the rest gambled on such as Dimitar Berbatov and Robinho. It can be about the young stars picked up by a sophisticated scouting system and nurtured by an astute club.It can be about the art of management.True, you could say Wenger has been forced down the frugal route by Arsenal's reluctance to break wage structures and their refusal or inability to splash silly money in an inflated market place.But that would be to miss the essence of Wenger.

Many thought the Frenchman would be the next to leave Arsenal after his friend and closest ally David Dein was ousted from the club's board when he attempted to take the Gunners down the foreign ownership route.The main reason Wenger stayed was because of the kids. Because he could not envisage leaving to a successor the legacy he had built so painstakingly over the past decade.

And on Tuesday night that legacy was plain to see.In the brilliant hat-trick of Mexican Carlos Vela, the two goals of Nicklas Bendtner and, most crucially, the performance of the seven British players, Gavin Hoyte, Kieran Gibbs, Mark Randall, Aaron Ramsey, Jay Simpson, Henri Lansbury and 16-year-old goalscorer Jack Wilshere who played a part in the victory.One barb legitimately aimed at Wenger down the years, along with the fact that he suffers from selective myopia where his own players' disciplinary flaws are concerned, is that he has led the chase for foreign talent to the detriment of the home nations, particularly the England side.

Wenger has always defended that accusation by claiming he does not look at a passport when gauging the values and qualities of a footballer and that is why his latest crop of youngsters are also exciting from a national perspective.Make no mistake, in a football world increasingly filled with colliding billionaires, the Wenger route is a brave route. The task now is to ensure that the gifted ones take the extra step to Premier League stardom in the manner of Theo Walcott.

As Wenger said: "The biggest challenge is to keep them together and slowly integrate them into the first team."When you are under immense pressure to buy in every transfer window, you know that you have these players behind and it would be killing the work we have done."
Which is why Wenger should be applauded.And why he insists, whatever the pressure, he will stick with his youngsters all the way to the final of the Carling Cup.

Let's hope he does. And let's hope they and their commendable manager demonstrate to such as Roman Abramovich and Manchester City's Sheikh Mansour bin Zayed al Nahyan that cash is not always king.And that, contrary to what one famed TV pundit once said, you can win something with kids.

Once be a gooner, you will always be. Always have, always be.All da best ARSENAL.

p/s: Selamat hari raya..maaf zahir batin

I.H~~~the continue

2008-09-21T00:11:00.000-07:00

ok..let continue the story..hehehe..the voices of my head are impatiently trying to go out from my head..hahaha, another weird metaphor from me.

Later that day, my day busy with my friends. we went to state museum ( weird, but its true), to the wan man's island( masjid kristal) and many more.Actually its fun for be tour guide.hehe..but its not fun when in the time likes this.The fasting month..letih beb..hahaha.At the evening, i just hanging around at my friends stall. He sell fruits juice.Every year when the ramadhan come, he will sell " air buah" at the bazar. " cari duit lebih" he saids when i ask why. Coz it must be tired, be a mechanics in the morning and selling " air buah" at the evening. hehe, so this is life, everythings are not free.( girls included,hehehe). During the "lepak" thing at the stall, i noticed one things. Hehe, there are a lot of young and attractive girl near my neighborhood. How can i never noticed its before? hahaha..totally weird. Are they just come out from a hidden place? weird.So, that evening my eyes are keep watching them.
But, dont start to judge me k. I never said that i flirting with them, just noticed k.just noticed. hehehe.Flirting with girl at bazaar ramadhan? hehe..totally not my style. That evening. In out of nowhere, the stall just full with girls.maybe coz i hanging out at the stall.hahaha ( actually i just add this part, hehe)

later that night, after bebukak i got to come back to college.the instant holiday are come to the end. = (My mom pack me some " lauk pauk' so i didnt have buy for bersahur later.waa. the bored feeling are coming back to me.

Erm, on the way back, while i driving i realize somethings.Somethings that i suppose to realize a while ago. Oh god, i totally hate the "mat rempit things" They keep irritating me.
Actually, on the way back we suddenly pass a group of motorcycle. Where n who they are, i don't know. But what i know that they keep disturbing others user of the road. riding without side mirror, passing car from the both side left and right. Chatting with friends while riding. Its totally dangers they self. ye la, riding dangerous in the middle of nite.

But, some part of me that laugh that nite. Actually, a few year ago. I uses to be one of them. Not the biker i meet last night, but the activities. hehehe.. teenagers. very excited with the speed. keep pushing the adhernalin. yaAllah, xnak dah buat mcm tu lagi. yaAllah, mintak2 la xde lagi org join xtvt camtu jugak. Totally dangerous and make others people mad. and its totally not cool.

hehehe.. so that all my story. my bored story. got some works to do. Assignment.

P/s: i don't know why, suddenly i feel just likes typing and thinking.. hehehe..

I.H~~~~Instant Holiday

2008-09-20T10:16:00.000-07:00

waa..letih..
hehe..not in frustrated way..but release..happy mood..
hehe..actually i just arrived from kuala terengganu..even i still "LETIH" from 4 hours straight driving from my house..i still wanna update myblog..hehehe..online for awhile..=)

erm..actually i just went for home for a day..just fullfill my promise to my dad..bebukak kt umah weekend ni..hehehe..yesterday, after strugling with oil and tool at the lab..My cousins call me..

Abg ju: Elo dauz..

me: elo..lame xdgr cite bang..hehe..bz ngan awek ek..hahaha

Abg ju: hahaha..bz ngan keje r..hahaha..ngan awek bz jugak..hahaha..eh, dauz..abg nak mntk tolonk skit ni..

me: ye2 r tu..nak mintk tolonk ape?

Abg ju: tolonk jage keta abg jup..Abg nak p Jb..hehe..ok?

me: ye ek..ok..gune wat balik umah leh?

Abg ju: gume la..minyak duit sndiri la..hehe..kim salam kt abah ek..

me: ok..hehehe..cantek la..

Abg ju: ok..jup agi abg antar kt umah..

hehehe..so, that how my journey begins..
After packing afew things ( actually, its just all my dirty cloths).. that i ask a few of my friends if they wanna follow me.I hate to driving alone.Its make me sleepy..especially in this ramadhan month. 2 of my friends very excited when i ask them.Both of them, have never been to terengganu.So, i said why not. just jump into the car n i will your tour guide..hahaha..
That day, my minds just thinking about " nak bbukak kt umah' haha..that all i just thinks. So, suddenly the spirit of fernando alonso merge with me..we move from kuantan at 3.30 n all arrived at 6.00. Haha.. my mother was very shock.hahaha..its suppose to be 3 and half hour journey..so, i get a free lecture that day.haha.. but i still feel happy. coz it been a long time i didnt see the faced of my mother that be worried.Mom, thanks. I love u..thanks for your caring to me.
That night my night just fill will be the touring guide for both of my friends. One from sabah and one from selangor. I just showing around the city of kuala terengganu. hehe.. the City that i love the move. small but still can make u happy. Totally cool.

Erm, be at home has help me to release all my tension. the smile of my "abah" and my " mak" has help me to feel fresh. All my problem suddenly vanished. YaAllah, i really2 love both of them. We talk about a few things.. hehehe..likes usual i try to persuaded my dad for buying a car to me and just likes usual, it fail. hehehe..
Actually since i still a child, my father never try to spoil me with money.My father always teach me, If i want somethings. i must work hard to get it.It always tell me, never ever asking people to help in somethings that u can do it coz it will show them that u r weak.Erm, thanks dad.But he always spoil me with love. motivated me. guide me. He always make sure all my needed are enough.hehe.. But that night, he give me some hope." belajar dlu, abiskn dlu sem ni.Klu pointer ok. baru pkir psl keta"
hehe.. that a promise right? a hope? or its only me that thinking like that?hehe..

waa.. letih2..my minds cannot continue thinkings..wanna sleep..can i continue my story in another time? The voice of my head are starting to disappear with the sleepy feeling hehehe..
so its look likes the ends of my blogging today..daa..

P/S: YaAllah, panjangkan umur kedua ibubapaku.Murahkan rezeki mereka. Berikan lah mereka kesihatan yang bagus dan semoga aku dapat membalas segala jasa-jasa mereka terhadap ku.Amin.

indispensable

2008-09-18T10:57:00.000-07:00

indispensable..
such a completable words..
indispensable is adjective words that mean absolutely necessary..
ok speaking of indispensable...what is indispensable in your life?
have u ever thinking about it?
yes, i have it..a lot..and it make me keep forward..everyday..
For example, i always thinking that is studying is indispensable?
Usually a simple question likes that will be answers not less a few seconds..hehehe for sure i will answer it..YES..Erm..but there will always a question that need a long time..for came up with a proper answers.Love?it maybe the tough ones..usually i just ignore it.

ok2..now let me share u somethings..indispensable things are not just a things that u need..but its also about how indispensable u are to others.Are people around u aware the existing of u?Are u important to others?Hehehe probably, someone that read this article must be thinks" what the hell of this guys talk.suddenly talking about indispensable". hehe..actually i got my reasons. Be a final year student are tough.Facing many things and try to reach somethings.But the worse of all.Be separating from all your friends. From that, i start to thinking. Am i gonna be someone that always be remember from my friends? Am i gonna be someone that gonna be forgotten?hehehe.. Silly ek..So after a few thought, i decide. Why not i try to be someone that indispensable to others. So, someday i will not be forgotten. I hope so.

So..this is my plan.

Belonging

Listen to your friends without interrupting nor being hurry.
Send them your warm greetings via e-cards( kad raya pn ok kn or just giving testi at friendster)
Tell them how you miss them.( to a guy..probably i gonna sounds weird)
Send them special messages at their birthday
Comfort them in times of trouble.
Introduce them to your other friends to expand their networks.
Buy them gifts when you are traveling(balik kampung for example). Even small gifts matter

Esteem

Ask them how they are doing.
Praise them for the good jobs they have done.
Talk with them about their achievements.
Talk about how good they are in front of your other friends.
Be the first person to tell them about good news involving them.

hahaha..hope its will help..what do u thinks? are this gonna help me? help me from be a schmuck person or i just try to be me.be myself.
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p/s: erm..i donno why suddenly i just post a boring article likes this.hehe..maybe i am bored.Need some holiday..pleazz

Unpredictable life..

2008-09-17T21:22:00.000-07:00

lifes?
kehidupan..
its so unpredictable..
btol..
xcaye ek?

ok let me tell you a story..base on my experience..TODAY!!!
true story...('',)

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1st scene

9.30 am and i still lying on my bed..rase mmg malas btol..i just got 1 class today.. the DFMA and i got a presentation to make..arrr suck..
Suddenly my ringing..got a Sms..Its from my big sister..

Kaklong: Dah, thn ni nak shopping raya tak?

Me: Bila?

Kaklong: Dtg jb la weekend ni..bleh? or nak shopping sendiri?

Me: Ala kaklong, Abg ade byk keje r kena buat..hehehe..bagi duit leh?Abg shopping sndiri r..

Kaklong : Ok2..nak berape?

Me: Rm 300 leh..hehehe skit je tu..

Kaklong : Ok2..nnt kaklong bank in kn..

Me : ok..thanks..hehehe tp klu tejumpe kemeja guess lengan pendek..beli ek..hehehe

Kaklong..Arr.. malas nak layan..

than our conversation continue to the other things..More.. to my sis wedding preparation..

~~hehehe..menarik kn..tak disangka2 pagi2..dpt duit.. Rm300..so unpredictable..Yup, maybe Rm300 r not that big for some people, but for me enough for buy a few things.. i not that picky in the buying part..hahaha..

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2nd scene..

But somethings unexpected happen later..BAD things..=(
Just got a call..

Mr.Simon: Hello, can i talk to mr. Firdaus..( actually he cannot pronounce my name, biase la..pelat cina)

Me : Yes, I talking..

Mr. Simon: Ok, i call u from the Promac engineering. Regarding to ur blanking die assemble.

Me: Owh..So how the progress? Dah siap ek..

Mr. Simon : Yup

Me : How much?

Mr.Simon : Rm 280

Arrr...that totally gonna make me crazy. I thought i just gonna be around a hundred.. Just drilling 4 holes..Waa..sedeynye..Mane nak cekow duit ni..

RM300- RM 280 = Rm 20.

hahaha..Rm 20? what i gonna buy with it? kuih raya?

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So..am i right? life are unpredictable..
We should always be prepare.Never ever feel that u r safe..
kehidupan ni mmg susah nak dijangka..Kita kena selalu bersedia.Bersedia untuk kalah, bersedia untuk menang. Ini smua mmg sudah menjadi adat resam didalam kehidupan.Dalam smua pekara, especially in love.
In love, u should be prepare to be hurt and be prepare to let it go.
Btol..jika skrg kita happy its not means that u will be always be happy..
Life is just likes a bunch of tyres ..Spinning around..
ala..hidup ni mcm roda..turun naek..hehe
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Abah: assalamualaikum

Me: w'salam

Abah : Dah,watpe tu? Class camne arini?

Me : Baru balik dr kuantan, letih2..

Abah : Buat pe p kuantan?

Me : Abg pg ambik workpiece abg.. Utk Psm abg.. Dah siap dah..Mak wat pe?

Abah : Ooo..byk lg ke xsiap PSM? mak ade..duk tgk tv..

Me : Skit je lg..Abah..hehehe..nak mntk sesuatu leh?

Abah : Ye nak mintk ape? duit? brape?

Me : eh tahu2 je ek..hehehe..Abah cover balik ek duit yg abg abis utk PSM leh?hehehe..

Abah : ok2..Tp miggu ni,dah kena balik umah..bukak pose kt umah..ok?

Me: ok..hehe

( DAH- the nickname that usual my parents call me..weird right? (firdaus-pidaoh-pidah-dah))

actually later that day..my dad call me..the hero of my life..
n that the conversation that happen..lega..
hehehe...but its not mean u must stop hoping when suddenly bad happen to u..
keep thinks +ve..keep trying to fit it back.. coz that life is for..
For me..my problem for today have be solve..
I never give up..never give up utk mntk duit ngan abah..
hahaha..LEH SHOPPING RAYA...

Lying..

2008-09-17T11:28:00.000-07:00

lying is one of the nature attitude of human..hehe... i thinks all human uses to lie..including me.. But it be separate or discriminate by how often you lying.. n what the effect of your lying..

Ok let me share u somethings that i have keeps in my pc for a long times..i uses to post it in the bulletin board of friendster but why not i post again in my own blog.. somethings can help me to reminds myself or my friends.

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Menipu merupakan pekerjaan dosa besar, kerana sifat ini merupakan sifat yang paling menonjol yang dimiliki oleh orang munafik. Rasulullah SAW bersabda maksudnya: "Tanda-tanda orang munafik itu ada tiga macam, apabila berkata suka berdusta, apabila berjanji selalu menyalahi dan apabila diberi kepercayaan (amanah) suka khianat". (Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim). Balasan bagi orang suka menipu serta tidak amanah ataupun tergolong dalam orang munafik ini sangat pedih di akhirat nanti. Sekalipun orang munafik atau menipu orang itu sentiasa merahsiakan sifat kemunafikannya, Allah adalah Zat Yang Maha Tahu akan membongkar kesalahannya di hadapan orang-orang Islam apa yang selama ini tersimpan dalam hatinya. Allah berfirman maksudnya: "Atau apakah orang-orang yang ada penyakit dalam hatinya mengira bahawa Allah tidak akan menampakkan kedengkian mereka? dan kalau Kami kehendaki nescaya Kami tunjukkan mereka kepadamu sehingga kamu benar-benar dapat mengenal mereka kiasan-kiasan perkataan mereka dan Allah mengetahui perbuatan-perbuatan kamu" (Muhammad ayat 29-30) Dalam sebuaha riwayat dikisahkan, merupakan perjalanan yang mengerikan bagi mereka yang suka menipu di akhirat nanti dengan melalui jambatan nereka yang lebih lembut dari helaian rambut. Tidak ada manusia yang mampu melaluinya kecuali atas pertolongan Allah. Bagi kaum munafik atau penipu, tatkala mereka menuju jambatan itu dan bersama-sama dengan kaum mukminin, mereka mendapatkan cahaya sebagaimana yang didapati oleh kaum mukminin itu. Nampak seakan-akan mereka turut melakukan solat, zakat, haji dan puasa. Namun di tengah jambatan itu, Allah mencabut cahaya-Nya. Mereka terdiam dan berdiri dalam keadaan bingung, tak mampu melanjutkan perjalanan. Mereka dipanggil oelh orang-orang mukmin supaya mendekatinya supaya mereka memperoleh cahaya, namun mereka tertinggal jauh. Lalu dikatakan kepada orang munafik atau peniupu itu mundurlah ke belakang. Mereka pun mundur mencari cahaya yang hilang. Begitulah nasib bagi orang yang menipu.

Berusahalah untuk bertaubat daripada pekerjaan menipu ini :

1. Kembali kepada Allah SWT dengan mengikuti segala ajaran-Nya dan bertaubat dengan taubat nasuha.

2. Bertawakal kepada Allah SWT dengan sebenarnya sambil mengharapkan keutamaan-Nya.

3. Bersyukur kepada Allah kerana telah membuka hati kita kepada bertaubat kepada-Nya, insya Allah segala kesilapan yang telah kita lakukan pada masa silam akan diampunkan-Nya.

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I hope, in future i will make sure myself for not lying or for the better, maybe not be the victim of lying..Erm.. actually, these day i starting to be a paranoid person..Dont know why n what..erm..

Totally Make Sense

2008-09-17T11:22:00.001-07:00

hehe..totally make sense.

last few day, i read an interesting post at the bulletin board of the friendster... menarik..hehehe..
so i decided to copy it and post it back.. just change the title of it from " ppuan dan hotel" to " totally make sense"..
hehehe.. i got a few warm response from the post.. u wanna know why?
ok, i will share it with u..

So,let the story begins..

A group of girlfriends go on vacation and see a five-story hotel with a sign that reads "for women only." Since they are without their boyfriends, they decide to go in.

The doorman, a very attractive guy, explains to them how it works. "We have 5 floors. Go up floor by floor, and once you find what you're looking for, you can stay there. It's easy to decide, since each floor has signs telling you what's on that floor. The only rule is, once you leave a floor, you can't return to it."

The women talk it over and decide to go for it.

They start going up, and on the first floor the sign reads, "All the men here are horrible lovers, but they are kind and sensitive."

The friends laugh and without hesitation move on to the next floor.

The sign on the second floor reads "All the men here are wonderful lovers, but they generally treat women badly."

This wasn't going to do, so again they head for the stairs.

The friends move up to the third floor where the sign reads "All the men here are great lovers and sensitive to the needs of women."

This was good but there are still two more floors so.........

So on to the fourth floor, and this sign seems perfect. "All the men here have perfect builds; are sensitive and attentive to women; are perfect lovers; they are also single, rich and straight."

The women are really pleased, but they decide that they would rather see what the FIFTH floor has to offer before they settle.

When they reach the fifth floor, there is only a sign that reads: "There are no men here. This floor was built only to prove that there is simply no way to please a woman." ('',)

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hehehehe... am i right? the story totally makes senses...no offense to all girls k.. its true... try to thinks about it..hehehe, i don't means that boys or man are noble k.. we all the same..just the same..It just the nature of human, that never feel enough with everything that they got. In all kinds things, in study, in works,in money and in love.. Yes in love, especially in love.. Somethings, human are hard to accept their partner. Friends, not much i can said.Just be loyal to your partner. NEVER EVER BREAK your partner heart.Coz its HURTS..its true..admit it..

start to addicted..

2008-09-16T21:39:00.000-07:00

elo..me again

hehehe...its been a long time since i updated my blog.. busy2..a lot things to do..a lot things to settle..a lot things to things.. hate life likes that.. no rest and no times to play..
But i still have time to listening to music..hehehe.. i don't know why but i thinks i start to addicted to AVENGED SEVENFOLD...Totally into it..hehehe.. the songs..waa..cannot describe it.. I start to collect all the poster of AVENGED SEVENFOLD..All their songs.. Some of their vclips.. n i even read or make some research about them..sick giler.. likes usual, once i start to likes something, i will make sure that i know every things about its..hahaha..

ok2.. let me introduce one of the AVENGED SEVENFOLD's song..lreally likes this songs..

Almost Easy by Avenged Sevenfold

I feel insane every single time I'm asked to compromise
'Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways and that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance?
By that look on your face I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not in sane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not! not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back to again it's almost easy
Shame pluses through my heart from the things that I've done to you
It's hard to face but the fact remains that this is nothing new
I left you bound and tied suicidal memories
Selfish beneath the skin but deep inside I'm not insane

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not! not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back to again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But first you fall)
Come back to again it's almost easy
Now that I've lost you it kills me to say
(Hurts to say)
I've try to hold on as you've slowly slipped away
I'm losing the fight, I've treated you wrong now let me make it right
(Make it right)

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not! not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back to again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But first you fall)
Come back to again it's almost easy

Gratisan Musik

kucar- lanar..

2008-09-07T20:25:00.000-07:00

kucar- lanar ni same la maksub dgn kucar kacir.. bagi sape1 yg follow scenes underground terengganu..mesti pnh dgr ngan name kucarlanar kn?hehe... ade satu lagi ayat terengganu that represent the same meaning of kucar lanar.. Bolok wok..hahaha..

Actually, cam tu life aku 2,3 arini( bolok wok--kucar lanar--kucar kacir)..ala..time management dah hancur..Nak balik kg..tp xsempat..2,3 ari ni aku cam busy skit.. Semalam baru abiskn seminar softskill..Alhamdulillah..leh gak aku knovo..hahaha..bukan pe..xjoin seminar ni, xleh konvo tau..
waa, sedar xsedar dah smggu lebih kita bpuasa ek..cam xperasan lgsg..hehehe..aku kena cari duit lebih skit ni..hehehe..byk jugak nak kena tukar ni..nak kena beli baru..Nak pow sape ek..Nak pow kaklong? ala..cam malu lak..ngan mak? ngan abah? hehehe..ok jugak..dah lame aku xpow diorg..apa salahnye bg kt aku Rm 200 setiap sorg..hahaha..dpt la aku angkat levis baru selai ngan RAY BAN..dah gian beb..Ray Ban shooter pn ray ban shooter la..xkesah..Aku mmg dah lame teringin nak beli ni..Tp kali ni simpan elok2..xnak jd cam dlu..leh tercicir mase time konvo ramai2..rugi 300 lbh beb..

Bercakap psl duit ni..nmpknye sem depan kena la pandai2 berjimat skit..Aku bru dpt tawaran praktikal kt MMHE (Malaysian Marine Heavy Engineering)..Company yg agak besar jugak..Walaupn diorg just bayar ciput, tp aku mcm berminat jke.. psl InsyaAllah mayb aku akan diserapkn permananent selepas 3 bulan.. hehehe mase tu bru la masyuk..more than 3K amount..hehehe.. leh la aku kumpul2 skit..nak Pi LONDON..hahaha..Kaklong pn ade janji gak ngan aku, klu pointer aku elok sem ni.. insyAllah dier nak belikn keta utk aku..hahaha..tu la..kena study leklok ni..hahaha

Study..Concentrate..yg tu penting skrg..Ppuan? malas nak pikir psl diorg xpnh nak pkirkn psl aku..Such not fair..hahaha

aku yang ditinggalkan..

2008-09-05T03:17:00.000-07:00

Arrr..sedeynye..aku kena tggal.. hehehe..Actually aku bru balik dari lab.. buat thesis aku.. than sampai je umah.. semua org dah xde.. smua housemate aku dah kuar pg ke kuantan.. yaAllah.. aku lupa..bila aku check hanset, hehehe.. ade 13 miscall... diorg dah call aku suh pulang..

Sebenarnye arini kitorg planning nak pergi berbukak kt luar.. Ala.. terlepas la aku nak mkn Tomyam Pure.. dah lame mengidam ni...Frust btol...tpaksa la aku berbukak sorg2 arini... mkn makanan yg jual kt cafe.. je.. So lame..

Erm.. tp arini aku mmg benar2 sibuk.. dari pkul 8 lagi aku dah ade kt lab.. Aku mmg dah nekad nak siapkn thesis aku cepat2..xnak pening2 lagi..Dah bosank dgr leteran cik Zamzuri (supervisor aku, mulut mmg laser..tahan je la..) Smpi je kt lab, si bangit dah ade... classmate aku.. Dier nak siapkn thesis dier jugak..Tp blom sempat kitorg nak mulakn keje, Air pressure lak buat hal.. so terpaksa la kitorg pg lab dak2 automotive.. Pinjam portable compressor diorg..Dekat satu hari jugak kitorg pakai.. Mesti Mr. Gang bisink2..Arini supervisor aku ade dtg tolonk..So smua keje agak smooth skit..

sblh ptg lak..aku still pg buat keje.. tp kali ni aku just pg cari kedai utk tempah workpiece..hehehe.. aku dah mula malas.. xkesah la brape upahnye..asal siap thesis..hahaha..
Penat jugak la arini..lebih2 lagi bulan puase.. Aku mari terpikir jugak.. Macam mane la, sahabat2 rasul bleh berperang mase bulan ramadhan ek.. aku ni buat keje skit dah letih.. YaAllah, mmg jauh beza kemampuan aku ini.. Malu lak rase..

erm, just smpi kt cni je la aku nak berceloteh arini.. dah lewat ni.. baek aku kuar pg cari lauk pauk.. dah dekat waktu berbuka.. =)

p/s: kenapa mesti aku yg kena?

happy or its a sad day?

2008-09-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

just got a few pic of the expoconvo program that i join.Me and my team have join the Invention competition and luckily we win the bronze.. Not bad for a beginner likes me.. But i not totally happy that day..Cannot fully concentrate..

-me and my friends at our kiosk, after presentation.

=)

waiting 4 someones..

p/s: Actually that day were the beginning of the sucks day of my life.. hate to remember about its..

Terawih..

2008-09-04T01:11:00.000-07:00

Huh..leganye hati ni lepas borak2 ngan mak jup akdi..byk jugak yg kitorg2 sembang2kn.. Actually, aku bru balik dr lab.Hati lak xtenang bila kena marah ngan supervisor.Sakit hati betol.Sabar je la bulan2 puasa ni.. Naseb baek la mak ade call. Mak ngan abah on da way balik dr besut. So leh la kutuk2 supervisor skit..hahaha, supervisor aku ni pelik skit..slalu je lupa2 padahal dier yang suh aku buat camtu.. kadang2 ok la kna marah psl pkara camtu tp lame2 jd sakit hati jugak, kena marah psl perkara yang kite xbuat. Erm, sabar je la.. Aku ni pn satu.. mulut senyup je, langsung xmenjawab bila kena marah..isk2..Tp mmg salah aku jugak.. lagsung xbuat pape keje mggu lepas (mggu yang paling down, mggu yg paling menyedihkn, meyeksakan)

Erm, mak ade suh aku balik weekend ni, tp cam susah je. Yela ade seminar softskill lak.. Klu ikutkn hati mmg nak balik je.. Bosank jugak bebukak ngan makanan-makanan kt cni..xfresh langsung. Hahaha..klu kt umah leh la suh mak masak sedap2..hehehe.. Aku tahu mak ngan abah dah start bosank bebukak berdua je kt umah. Erm, klu time2 camni mmg xde org kt umah, tggl mak ngan abah je la. Klu ari siang lak tggl la mak sorg2 kt umah..Ye la abah pg mngajar kt sekolah.Erm, bila sebut psl balik puasa kt kg ni. Ade satu perkra yg aku mmg xleh lupa. Tiap-tiap tahun. TERAWIH....hehehe..mesti kena pergi.. Aku pn xthu kenapa..

Seingat aku, dr kecik lg. Bila tiba bulan puasa,terawih mesti xleh lupa.. hahaha..mesti korang aku ni baek sgt ni ek..hahaha.. xde la camtu..Mase zaman2 aku kecik dlu, mase time2 skolah rendah, mak ngan abah ni garang skit. So xleh la kuar malam. hehehe, aku lak mase kecik2 ni hyperactive. So tyme2 bulan pose la bru leh nak kuar malam. Ckap nak pergi terawih ngan kekawan, hahaha padahal pergi jelajah satu kampung.. maen mercun, meriam kabalt..hahaha..mmg seronok tyme2 tu..Yg paling best, bila tyme malam 7 liku.. yela, mase tu rmi yg kuar.. so biasenye kitorg2 yg umur2 sebaya ni slalunye pg la ke kampung sebelah.. pergi kaco diorg.. hehe.. pergi lontar mercun..hahaha..seronok giler.. tp seronok juga la kena marah bila balik mak tengok baju melayu terbakar..hehehe.. Tp tu bila zaman2 sekolah rendah, bila naek sekolah menengah laen lak aktiviti.hehehe

Bila masuk form 1 aku dah kna antar duk hostel ( psl aku nakal sgt kot).. Mmg xbest.. Mlm terawih kt hostel ngan kt kg jauh bebeza..I more prefer to my own hometown..hahaha.. Nak suke2 ngan kekawan pn xleh, yela warden asyik buat rondaan je.. hehe.. Erm, Bila naek sekolah menengah, aktiviti kitorg dah byk berubah.. Biasenye kitorg selesaikn solat terawih dlu, xmcm sekolah rendah selepas je solah isyak trus kuar masjid..Aktiviti kitorg mcm dlu2 gak..kluar jejalan, lepak2 just xde la se aktif mase tme sekolah2 rendah dlu. Biasenye kitorg lepak2 je kt umah kwn aku ni..lepas Solat trus lepak sana. Umah dier besar, than xde org lak. Mak ngan ayah dier lak sporting. Mercun ngan meriam dah jarang2..Klu bosank2.. kitorg pg la jejalan..Ronda2 ramai..Tp dlm byk2 sejarah meronda2 kampung ni..Mmg xleh nak lupa la..1st tyme naek keta yg kwn aku (14 tahun) pandu..mase tu form 2..Kitorg curi keta datuk dier..YaAllah..mmg dasyat..ingatkn kitorg mmg dah xraye dah.. Yela siap nak masuk dlm parit lagi.. gelap..xthu camne nak pasang lampu..hahaha..hahaha..

Erm, tp smua tu mcm susah lagi nak buat bila umur pn dah menjangkau 20-an ni. kwan2 lak masing2 sibuk dengan hal masing2..Aku pn same.. Klu balik pn dekat2 raya je..

RINDUNYE aku ngan zaman kanak2 aku..xde nak rungsing pkir psl kerja, rungsing psl perempuan.

P/S: insyaAllah mlm ni pergi lagi terawih..('',) YaAllah, kenapa la hati aku masih merinduinye kehadirannye..i thinks she even didn't remember a tiny things about me...arrr..sick giler..

BlooD?

2008-09-03T11:59:00.000-07:00

DARAH O
Individu yang memiliki jenis darah dari kategori ini disifatkan sebagai individu yang setia, sabar dan sentiasa yakin terhadap keupayaan dan kebolehan diri sendiri. Selain itu individu dari kategori ini juga sering bersifat ingin menjadi ketua walau dalam apa jua perkara yang ingin dilakukan khususnya yang melibatkan kerja-kerj berkumpulan. Sekiranya menginginkan sesuatu, kamu akan berusaha untuk mencapaimatlamat tersebut walau dalam apa cara sekalipun. Ada kalanya kamu dikatakan memiliki sifat cemburu yang agak kuat. Selain itu kamu juga terlalu seriusdalam persaingan sehinggakan ia mampu memberikan tekanan kepada diri kamu sendiri. Oleh yang demikian kamu harus lebih bijak mengawal emosi diri mu agar tidak dikuasai dengan tekanan

DARAH A
Keharmonian dan keamanan adalah matlamat utama dalam hidup kamu. Kamu gemar melakukan kerja-kerja secara berkumpulan dan kamu juga gemar melibatkan diri dengan berpersatuan. Kamu bijak bergaul dengan individu disekeliling mu dan ternyata mereka juga sentiasa berasa senang untuk bekerjasama dengan mu.Sikap sensitif, sabar, dan bertimbang rasa yang ada dalam diri kamuitu melambangkan bahawa kamu tergolong dalam kategori individu yang memiliki keperibadian penyayang. Walau bagaimanapun ada kalanya kamu agak degil dan terlalu kuat bekerja sehinggakan tidak mengendahkan langsung waktu untuk berehat.Kamu harus ingat, kesihatan juga perlu diutamakan. Jangan kerana terlalu leka dengan kerja-kerja kamu itu, kesihatan diri pula yang terabai.

DARAH B
Sempoi! Itulah ungkapan yang paling rapat dengan mu. Kamu lebih selesadengan kesederhanaan. Dalam perhubungan pula kamu adalah individu yang terlalu jujurdan lebih gemar berterus terang dalam apa jua perkara. Dalammelaksanakan sesuatu tugasan yang diberikan, kamu lebih gemar melaksanakannya dengan cara kamu sendiri. Kamu adalah individu yang kreatif dan fleksibel, mudahbagi diri kamu untuk meletakkan diri sendiri dalam apa jua situasi mahupun kelompok golongan tertentu. Kamu adalah individu yang bijak bersosial. Namunada kalanya sikap kamu yang gemar berdikari dan tidak gemar memintabantuan orang lain itu, mampu mendatangkan masalah buat diri mu dan sekali gusmemperlihatkan kelemahan pada diri sendiri. Kamu harus ingat bahawa, tidak semua perkara kita boleh menyelesaikannya secara bersendirian.

DARAH AB
Tenang dan bijak mengawal emosi, itulah keperibadian yang jelas terpancar dalam diri individu yang tergolong dalam kategori darah berjenis AB ini. Kamu juga sentiasa menghormati orang lain dan ini menjadikan individu yang berada di sekeliling mu berasa selesa untuk berdampingan dengan mu. Kamu juga memiliki sikap humor semula jadi dalam diri dan sentiasa bersikap menghiburkan dan ceria.Namun ada satu perkara yang harus kamu perbaiki dalam diri kamu itu.Kamuperlulebih bijak dan berani untuk membuat keputusan sendiri. Jangan biarkan orang lain membuat keputusan untuk diri kamu sendiri.

---> Actually i am the O type.. O for Okay.. looking back what the explanations saids.. I thinks not all are true but some of them are really representing of me..hehehee.. so its ups to you to accept its or to ignore it.. We not suppose 100% believed in somethings likes this but why not if we just uses it as a reminder or a guide for our daily activities. ('',) thinks about it..

P/s;Just wake up from my sleep and suddenly i feel empty.Hey girl, i passionately still in love with u..I still miss u..erm.. am i weird? sick giler..

mood xokay..

2008-09-02T22:31:00.000-07:00

arr..arini aku btol2 bengang.. btol2 rase nak marah..smua pkara yg aku buat smua xmnjadi...pg lab xleh buat keje.. bangang punye universiti..duit ade banyak baiki la cepat2 air pressure tu..jgn la nak myusahkn student..bukannye aku xbayar yuran..bangang2...arrr..nak marahnye..mata dah mngantuk ni..effect dr ubat yg aku mkn bsahur tkdi...nak on9 fs? ntah la..tiba2 ilang smua mood..aku dah mcm xde mood..xde minat dgn smua pkara..aku mmg rase nak marah je arini...

yaAllah..kuatkan lah iman aku ini..dibulan ramadhan ini..dibulan yg mulia ini..amin..insyaAllah..
p/s: kenapa?

KAWAN- 1

2008-09-02T18:21:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah, arini aku makin seyhat.. tp nak mandi agak2 xselesa.. rase pedih semacam je kt tangan.Btol2 atas urat. Kesan jarum semalam.Yaallah, aku mmg xske jarum..Ni yg last, dah xnak lagi la..naseb baek la aku balik awal, ntah2 doctaor nak suh duk lame2 lg.. Aku mmg paling benci jarum.Aku pn xthu kenapa, tp aku dah mcm fobia dgn barang tajam ni. Smua ni selepas peristiwa mase aku Form 3. Aku kehilangan sebahagian dari jari aku sendiri..Needles are SUCKS..

Erm, arini aku cuba untuk pose balik. Ok kot.. xde la mcm letih sgt.Batuk2 pn dah bkurang.Tp mmg xnak isap rokok dah..hehehe..aku dah xthu brape kali dah aku gune ayat ni..Tp last2 aku still cari benda alah tu. Eee.. klu aku tahu dari dlu benda alah tum cm bg effect camni aku xde la giler2 nak join.Ni smua psl nak kelihatan macho r konon. Nak cari kawan.

Bercakap tentang kawan. Selama aku hidup 22 tahun ni, aku dah ade bermacam-macam jenis kawan. Ade yg ok, ade yg xok. Aku jenis yg ske bkwn. Smua bleh masuk kepala. Aku ade bkwn dgn budak2 mat rempit tp xde la aku join lak ngan xtvt diorg. Aku ade bkawan ngan dak2 grunge, tp skadar untuk suke2..Nak pg joins diorg pg jamming? Maaf la, bukan diri aku.Mmg dlu aku pnh mcm giler2 nak join..Tp smua tu cam bukan diri aku..hahaha..malu lak rase..Tapi kn, antara smua kawan-kawan yg aku ade. Aku mmg xkan lupa 8 orang kawan yg aku bkwan sejak dari sekolah rendah lagi..Lebih dari 10 tahun. Paiz, Gie, Zafrie, Kero, Latpi, Din, Affam, Man. Smua dah mcm adik beradik.Kitorang mmg rapat. Bila cuti je, mmg kitorg akan berjumpa, akan lepak2 sekali. Mcm2 yg kitorg borak, tentang keje, keta, pelajaran dan kadang2 kitorg ade bincang jugak tentang masalah ppuan.

biasenya, bila datang pasal masalah ppuan, aku yg paling senyup. Aku mmg jarang terlibat dgn masalah2 tersebut. hehehe, kawan-kawan aku pn faham yg aku kepala maen2 skit. So susah nak jatuh hati ngan ppuan. Lagipn aku sendiri pn mngaku, yg aku mmg bodoh dlm bab2 nak mngurat ppuan. I maybe look ok, Good in sports (maybe not the star player but always be in 1st team in every sport), good in academic ( not that good but not that bad), mayb have good appearances( i thinks so..haha..not me to judges it). But i totally a loser when its comes to a girl part.I don't know why. May be i too naive. may be that i too soft.. I may be easy to get mad when its come to a guys things. would not minds to involve in a fight when its comes to guys things. But when its come to a girl things, i became weak. I will just follow everything that a girls told me. Erm, kenapa ek..

ok back to my story about my good friends, than semalam dlm pkol 11 mlm. aku mmg dah nak tdor psl mngantuk sgt(mkn ubat). Than telipon aku berbunyi.. Rupa2nye kero yg col aku..1st2 kitorg sembang2 biase je.. than dier pn btanye.." dah, mu ok dok..aku bukan nape.. aku perasaan mu laen mcm je 2,3 ari ni." Erm, aku pelik jugak, camne dier tahu.. than dier ckp la, y g dier tgk kt fs aku, smua dah len. Than paiz ngan zafri ade msg dier, yg aku tgh ade masalah. Oh. aku lupa, yg aku bru je balik dri lepak2 ngan diaorg. Erm. so kitorg pn bincang pnjg. Dlm byk2 kwn aku, kero la yg paling rapat dgn aku. dier byk beri nasihat kt aku.. Buat lawak2 skit.. Dier mmg mcm tu. Sebenarnye kero pn tgh ade masalah jugak jd bila dier dgr aku ade masalah cepat2 dier call. Atleast ade la teman senasib, katanye.. masalah kero ni mmg dah lame. just mmg susah nak disetelkn.Ambik masa.

Macam masalah aku ni? Hanya Allah saje yg tahu. Aku mmg xthu nak ckp pe. Yg aku mampu hanya la berdoa.

p/s: Am i a bad person? erm..Just God can answer it..

xseyhat 2

2008-09-02T02:11:00.000-07:00

hari ini hari ke-3 aku xbrape seyhat..

Arini aku just duk dlm bilik..pening kepala dah makin berkurang..dan arini aku xpose..kecewa jugak..xpose psl aku kna mkn ubat..nak mkn depan rakan2 pn segan so tpaksa la aku curi2 mkn.. nak ubat xleh perut kosong..Smlm aku pg ke hospital n doktor telah bagi MC selama 2 ari..so dpt la aku rehat2 kt kt bilik.. Mak ngan abah suh aku balik tp aku tolak dgn alasan xlarat nak jln jauh..Dgn keadaan mcm ni, mmg rase malas sgt2 nak jln jauh ni..lebih2 lg klu jalan jauh naek bas..

smlm doktor ckp badan aku kekurangan air..So smlm diorg telah masukkn air ke badan aku.. YaAllah.. sakit yg amat.. aku mmg paling xsuke dg jarum.Dengan wayar yg panjang..Klu belh aku nak je lari tp dah telanjur pg sana.. Doctor suh aku rehat2 jup..Aku pn xprasan camne aku bleh tertidor.. Dlm pkol 5.30 pagi aku terjage.. Aku tanye nurse yg bertugas, aku dah boleh balik lum..spls dier buat bbrape check up..aku dbenarkn balik..deman aku dah bkurang, xmbimbangkn. Housemate aku dtg jemput aku pg takdi..

Erm, YaAllah, mintak2 esok dpt la aku sambung buat keje. dapat siapkn Thesis aku yg lg 30% xsiap.. Aku kna rajin2 pg ke lab untk siapkn keje.. xleh malas.. Aku dah rugi 1 mggu kerana masalah aku.. Aku lansung xleh buat keje mggu lepas..mintak2 xde la masalah laen yg akan mnganggu aku selepas ini..insyaAllah..

p/s: i miss her..i really need her in my lifes..likes the old days.. hope she will be fine..i hope she miss me too..

xseyhat 1

2008-08-31T13:31:00.000-07:00

YaAllah..besarnye dugaan ko..

Actually aku baru je balik dari KL. Ade keje skit yg perlu aku selesaikan. Aku pg sana ari pada ari kamis selepas mendapat pangilan dari DENSO SDN BHD yg menyatakan yg diorg mahu berjupe aku.
Tanpa memlengahkn mase aku trus pergi mancari tiket. Pada malam pertama, aku tdor di bandar tasik selatan. Umah wak leng. Aku dah mmg selalu sgt pergi kesana, Makcik rohani mmg dah selalu pesan supaya aku pg ke sana.. Die ckp rindu..hehehe.. Actually aku pn dah mcm segan nak pg sana, dah dekat 3 tahun aku xpg sana. Erm, mayb aku yg terlalu busy dgn kehidupan aku.. AKu ade kehidupan ke?

Aku smpi kira kira2 dlm ptg. Mcm excite jugak r.. Dah lame xjupe wakleng, n aku pn nak dgr jugak cerita yg dier bwk dr UK.. hahaha, dier bru balik dr UK. Pg melawat abg zab yg bekerja kt sana. Waa, alakah bertuahnye ko Wak Leng. Lahir dlm keluarga yg agak berada. Aku tumpang gembira.Sebagai kwn lame, wakleng mcm memaharmi masalah aku. Aku mcm xbgitu happy. Asyik temernung je. Rokok plak mmg xlenkang dari tangan aku. Huh, actually dlm smggu ini aku mmg makin active menghisap rokok. dah menjadi tabiat aku, jika aku ade sesuatu masalah aku pasti akan mencari rokok. Sebatang hingga sebatang.Wak Leng mcm byk memberikan nasihat kepada aku..

Erm, nmpknye aku mmg xdpt nak meneruskn cerita aku. Aku sekarang tgh deman. Dari ari sabtu lagi. Batuk lak makin menjadi. Actually nak bukak mata pn dah mcm xbmaya. Tp mcm paksa diri utk bersahur.. Doctor suh aku jgn bpuasa arini tp aku mcm still nak beposa. Kepala aku tgh pening2. Mcm ade bjuta-juta jarum sedang mencucuk2 kepala aku. Sejuk nye.

p/s: i really miss her..pleaz come back to my life..shining mylife back..

2008-08-28T05:15:00.000-07:00

Pening oh pening. Hehehe, itu saje yg dapat aku ucap sekarang ini.. yela keje bertimbun-timbun. Masalah lak xpernah lekang dari aku. Tp itu smua aku xkesah. Itu smua mmg dah lumrah bagi seorg pelajar seperti aku ini.Tp letih la..

Alhamdulillah,arini smua seperti biase.Aku masih lagi mampu untuk tersenyum, aku masih lagi mampu untu berpikir dengan waras. Hari ni pun aku byk ketawa, byk tersenyum. Terima kasih semua wahai rakan- rakan. Hujung minggu pun dah nak bermula.. Yela, esok kitorg mmg xde klas. Test smua pn dah abis. Yang last pagi takdi.Alhamdulillah apa yg aku bace smua nye masuk. Smua psl soalan spot.hehehe.. mmg dah jd trend bagi aku untuk “ mnganggap”@ spot soalan2 mane yg akan masuk sekarang ni. Xthu la kenapa, aku mmg selesa mcm tu sejak akhir2 ini. Maybe psl mase yg suntuk untk prepare dang mungkin aku dah menjadi semakin malas? Erm, seingat aku, aku dlu mmg ske klu untuk ulang kaji smua chapter ni.. erm.. pelik ni..kena ubah ni..hehehe

erm..adakah aku sudah sembuh dari kekecewaan?

No... YaAllah, rindunye aku kepadanye. Aku rindu dengan suaranye yg manis, Aku rindu dengan ngomelan dier setiap kali dier balik dari keje, Aku rindu dgn sms2 dier, Aku rindu dgn senyuman dier...What should i do? Am i suppose, let i go? or Am i suppose fight back to get her love?Arrr..Deep inside really wanna go n see her.wanna have some slow talk. wanna hear some truth. But i really scare. What if she decided, didn't want to see me. She run when she saw me. She mad at me when she saw me. She hates me when i go and see her..Macam mane ni?

Erm, i need to gain back my strength.Need to be strong likes before. I know that she didn't want me back in her life. The sign have be given to me from the started. But why?, why she didn't explain to me. Why she didn't tell me the truth? am i not allowed to know the truth? itu yg buat aku betol2 xphm.kenapa agaknye..dier ade masalah ke? dpt ke dier handle smua ni sorg2?

P/s: gonna meet my old friends this weekends..lame tol xlepak2 ngan dier..

the songs..the mean songs

2008-08-27T00:11:00.000-07:00

kenangan terindah-samsons.mp3

Kenangan Terindah
by Samsons

aku yang lemah tanpamu
aku yang rentan karena
cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku

selama mata terbuka
sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun
aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

darimu, kutemukan hidupku
bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati

bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau kenangan
yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah

p/s: a song that totally suite with my feeling righ now..hahahaha..cheer up dauz.. its times for wake up..time for reborn..

Single?

2008-08-26T15:44:00.000-07:00

arrr... hatiku aku macam nak pecah bila aku melihat perkataan single dihalaman friendster beliau..that mean i have lost him forever... YaAllah, kenape begitu besar dugaan yang ko berikan kepada aku ini... YaAllah, kepada Engkau aku berserah, kepada Engkau aku meminta.. Berikan la kekuatan kepada diri ku ini..Berikanlah kekuatan kepada aku untuk menempuh sisa-sisa idup ku ini..erm.. sick giler..am i weird?

Sesungguhnye, hampir menitis airmataku ini apabila aku melihat perkataan itu. Tak tahu kenape, tiba-tiba aku rase diriku ini telah dirompak, dicabuli dan dihina seteruk-teruknye.Seolah-olah beliau mahu mengumunkan kepada seluruh dunia," wahai kawan-kawan, aku sudah tidak berpunya, aku telah meninggalkn si dia, cepat-cepat2 dapatkn aku"..i know the day will come, but never thought it will come this fast.. Am i really2 means nothings to her?YaAllah... Tp aku xleh nak salahknnye...Ntah kenapa, diriku ini masih tegar untuk mepertahankan dirinya. Bagi aku, aku hanya mahu melihat yang terbaik untuknya..

erm, it be 6.30 am.. i thought that i will be ok for today.. yela setelah betjaya mengharungi hari yang panjang semalam. Ntah mengapa, i feel that, everyday have been a long day..seperti biase, selepas solat aku akan terus menghadap computer. melayari internet atau menyiapkan pape kerje yang tertangguh. Seperti biase, aku akan pergi ke halaman beliau. Aku mengaku, yag aku mmg xleh melupakannye.masih. tetapi aku cuba. Aku cuba untuk tidak duduk bersendirian, aku cuba untuk meyertai pape aktiviti yang dilakukan oleh rakan-rakan aku. Aku cuba untuk menyibukkn diri sendiri. Dengan harapan, the pain will go away.. For me, the worst part of the day is early in the morning.dimana aku akan selalu bersendirian. memikirkan mase depan.YaAllah, teguhkan iman aku ini..

Kami berpisah bukan kerana aku yang silap. Bukan aku sengaja yang menyebabkannnye.That all things make me really2 sads. " maaf, ibu xskekan abg..So ineed some times to be alone..to makes the decisions". That the reasons... YaAllah.. adakah aku ini insan yang begitu teruk..begitu hina... Dinilai dan dihina dari satu pandangan yang xsmpi 10 minit.. Adakah aku telah gagal menunjukkn keikhlasan yg datang dri lubuk hati aku ini.Ntah mengapa, hati aku ini begitu tidak dapat menerima semua itu..somethings are not right..

Pada mulanye, aku cuba untuk menilai balik diriku ini, aku cuba untuk menyakinkannye. Namun begitu aku gagal.. Nampaknye aku dah xde harapan.. she totally didn't want to save our relationship. At the moment, i am the bad side and she is good ones. Everythings that i try to said will be block. She will give an excuse.everythings i saids...Suddenly, i came to realize somethings. It look likes, she didnt want me anymore.She try to kick me from her entire life.. Is she have founds someone else? is she got a problem, a really big problem..is she just try to uses me before...Arrr... aku memang tidak dapat menerimanye.. aku mcm nak giler. Aku call kakak ku..try to ask advise..from a women that more wise than me..Than with soft voice she advise me"Dah, sabar..nampaknye die mmg btol2 xmahu dah dlm idup dier lagi. Sabar ek dik. Mungkin dier ade masalah dier sendiri. Mungkin dier keliru. Klu pape keputusan yg adik akan terima, terima dengan seadanye.Idup adik masih panjang.. masa depan yang cerah." once again, my tear wanna drops again but i still can stand it.Btol apa yang kakakku cakapkn tu. even thought will be couple, but there were a lot of things that i didn't know about her. She totally be keep many things from me.Bout her past. But actually i the reasons. Cause i the ones that never ask.. I the ones that always state," abg xkesah pasal yg lepas2..yang abang kesah hanya la mase depan"..hahaha.. yup, it maybe true.. but seriously my friends, u need to know.. Not for reject or judge someones.. But need it to prepare..to prevent somethings bad from happen..

Even that, i now what happen.. i can guess what are goings on.. i never mad at her.i try to be a gentleman.Aku akan terima segalanye. Aku akan doakn semoga dirinya akan selalu bahagia. Aku akan selalu menerima dirinya jika dirinya mahu kembali dan aku masih belum..
YaAllah..kenapa gadis yng secantik dier menyebabkan aku sensara serbagini..adakah aku ini yang terlalu bodoh?adakah aku ini yang terlalu buta? weird..

p/s: kenapa aku ini yang terlalu pra-sangka. maybe she try to tell me the truth.. me she need me, but i the stupid ones that decided to give the white flag? its still rounding around in my minds..yaAllah, i hope she will realize that she have a lose a wonderful guys.. someones that will guide and make her happy.

Erm...abis basah kuyup..

2008-08-26T01:18:00.000-07:00

actually the rain have not stop falling from this morning till now. hehehe sometimes it makes me things.. Are its coincident or its the symbolic of my feeling right now. Look okay in the outside but totally bleeding and crushing in the inside..hehehe..i can fool others people but i cannot full about my feeling.

Last night, i cannot sleep at all. i try to closed my eyes but my mind..still thinking.. still flashback the old days..hehe..its been a really long nite. i try to find the best solution for my problem, but it all come to blank road. My head keep asking the same question. Why?why and why? why i deserve this things.. i never means bad things to her. It was unfair to me.the day before,when she said that she wanna be alone and give an unexpected reasons, my head just wanna to explode. Without thinking i just pack my cloth and went to see muriroh, my cousin. I borrow his car and start to drive to KL. But just once i past the kmph(a matriculation college situated at old road to KL), my minds come to thinks others things. Maybe she really have problem, maybe she really need to be alone. I stop the at side of the road. Calm my self. try to make sure. Am i doing the right things. Am ready to sacrifice my future by not going to the DFA test tomorrow, by searching an answer that i not really know that i will get. What i gonna said to her, when i seeing him? Am i gonna scold him? not, that not my style, i never treat women that rude.Do i know the road to her house? its this best way? i scream myself out.
then finally, i decide to turn around, try to give her some room.So i back grumbling around.back at my places, back to fight my own feeling..Arr..

But luckily i got many of good friends. They noticed me that i not really ok. They said that i just look likes someones that gonna do somethings stupids. someones that gonna kill someones. I really surprises when they said likes that. Than i realize, that i just to desperate, just follow my own feeling. So i decides to takes some wudhuk and then do the "solat sunat". It help a bit.it help me to reduces my temped.

Actually, from my young ages, i have bad temped problem. Its such a rebellious attitude. and i hate it. Cause of that attitude, i make many mistakes. Cause of that attitude, i nearly loses my future. Cause of that attitude, i never be the favorite student while in school. But that attitude just likes went away when i just reach the ages of 20, i start to thinks first before i do somethings, i start to closer my self to religions. I uses ask my mother, why i have that attitude? am i a bad person?
Calm she explain to me, " dah, dah bukan budak jahat, bukan budak xberdispilin, tp dah tlalu mengikut darah muda, dah. cuba la kawal. Cuba tenangkan diri dalam semua pekara". Then i realize others things. It have been in my bloodlines. I am the 4th generation of the warrior of daik people called wan komeng, whose have be famous with his bravery and his power. I got an ancestor that uses to kill hundred of people during war of kesultanan johor. I got an ancestor that have been kill by his enemy during a fight. A fight for claims who the powerful in the village. So, are the bad temped things flow into the bloodlines? Maybe.But it not an options for me for not reduce it. Alhamdulillah, it been a long times i didn't makes anythings stupids. Untill that day and luckily i realize it before too late.

hahaha.. actually i don't why, my hand just keep typing. i didn't follow the story. i try to tell everything, but keep hurting me back at the end. So, its ok if i just mixed story while i blogging. It help me release my stress..

the stress that been hunting me for a few day. that has make my life miserable.

p/s: my minds cannot stop thinking about her. is she ok? is she sick? is she ok right now? i thinks i still in love with her..

Sadness 1..

2008-08-25T16:52:00.000-07:00

today is the sad day for me.. it officially.. we broke up..that what i thinks...

my life has became miserable..i know this we coming, but not this early.Not in the middle of my study.Right now, i truthfully understand what the feeling of the people that has been hurt in love.Its really pains.I cannot sleep, I cannot thinks well, I did not have any appetite for eat.rm, it really hard when it about heart.Heart is like the general of our body.If the general fail to gain power, so the effect it will course all the army to fully function.

Ok. Let we talk my love story. Last few month, i have meet such a beautiful girl. She got a beautiful eyes, beautiful smile and dimple on both of her cheeks. The name of that girl suit the owner of it.
For the starting, i the first one that said hello to him. hehehe actually, it quite a gamble move. hehe i never thought she will reply back to me. Hehe.. Starting that day, my life has change. i likes to chat with him. Actually we meet in the friendster.com. A web that we can make new friends. She be in my list friends about 2 years.But never have the strength to approve him.
Ok2.. Back to the story. We talk about many things, what are she up to right now, planning of life, what she likes. Both of us are going along well.
One day, during we chat. She act weird. She said that she not into a good mood. So asking why.I try to help him.After a few moment, she start to talk. She tell me that, her ex-boyfriends try approve her again. She didn't likes it. So as a gentleman, i try to comfort him. That what i good for. I likes to comfort others peoples. From the early ages, i got this weird attitude. I likes to hear others people problem. I likes to solve others people problem.hehe weird right?Actually. i know for a beautiful girl likes him, she must have some a relationship with others guys. It natural. I uses to google him through the friendster. Actually i uses to see she when out with the guys. But i never tell him. Let it be my secret.She uses to study at terengganu, not far from my house.
ok, back to the story. After that, she became more close to me. i give him advise, share somethings such as story, novel, songs and etc. I became falling to him, somethings that i cannot control or never be in my mind. I became addicted to him. Actually i am a complicated man. I always set in my minds that i will only fall in love in one person and that person will be my wife.but i never thought it will be this fast. i just 22. So, i try to positive, try to be more reality. Than she start to give hint to me. She keep telling me that if i go to KL. Came an visit him.She lives in Ampang, Kuala Lumpur. I still try to act cool. Act to be more mature.
After a few weeks,finally she got a jobs. A jobs at a famous bank. She the same age as me but she finish her degree early than me. She course only consist 3 years but for me. i have to complete 4 full year.( i taking engineering). At the moment. our relationship has change, i have to re-reschedule my life to get in touch with him. But somethings miracle happen for me at her 1st day work. i still remember, at 7. 45 p.m while i just on the way to go for eat. She called me.She waiting for her LRT. She quite scared, so she decide to call me. but we talk just a few minutes cause that time i were in a car.with my housemate. So its not a proper time for a long talk.I tell him that i busy that time and she understands. But my heart saids that not proper way to act to a girl. so i decide i will call her again when i reach the restaurants. And yes, i can her again. She has a nice voices. She likes to mix language during talk. i mean english and malay. For me that cool. That sounds educated. we talk about 15 minutes till her mother has arrive for pick her up. Our conversation ends at that time. It been a nice conversations.i still remember te feeling when i talk or hear her voices for the 1st time.cannot describe its.

erm, i thinks let me stop my story for this times. I need to stop thinkings about her right now. maybe if i have time, have a courage to write again. i will continuing my story. A story that has be change my life. i promise..

suck 1

2008-08-24T20:19:00.000-07:00

erm..it be a tough day for me past this few day.. i didn't sleep much..i didn't eat..i even not properly function.. my head have totally disturbed.. i didn't study for the test tonight..so i decided to update my blog.

my life is suck.. my girlfriend didn't likes me.. i thinks so.. i totally useless..

am i that suck? my gf parents didn't likes me..why? am i to negative or to naive..its that a true reason? or there were another things..

kenape aku di layan macam ni? kenapa? i never this down.. i never felt this sad.. i never felt to desperate.. the true is..i never fall in love before.. and i never have this feeling as i feel to my gf..why?

kenapa

2008-06-29T02:23:00.000-07:00